Well, it looks as tho I have to start yet another blog....I keep starting these things and then forgetting how to get to them! If you know me, then you aren't surprised. If you don't know me, then you're probably thinking "What a moron!" Yep, that's me....what can I say? Anyhow, the reason for starting this blog is to invite you on my journey. You see, I am embarking on what I hope is the LAST journey I will take....I am hoping that this time I will see it through to what my doctor and I can agree is a healthy place for me to be.
My weight has been a life long issue. I was a normal sized kid until I was 5 or 6, then things went haywire. I'm not blaming anyone, but even my mom has admitted that it was just easier to give me seconds or bigger helpings if I asked...but it isn't her fault. I truly believe that genetics are a bitch and I am one of those people who have to fight hard against what runs through my body. My father's family are all heavy, and I'm not talking 200 pounds here people, most are probably that much overweight. I watched my father die at a young age from renal failure, which was a result of his diabetes going untreated, which was a result of being overweight. I don't want to leave my kids without a mother so I'm doing whatever it takes to make sure I'm alive and healthy!
I went to the doctor on Wednesday and told him about my family history...heart disease, thryoid disease, cancer, obesity, diabetes....and a plethora of other ailments my family is ridden with. One thing I have been very proud of is that I have been able to keep off almost 100 pounds for over 6 years! My heaviest weight.....303.6. My lowest weight.....197. My current weight...224. For the past 2 years I have been yo-yo-ing. Getting down to 200 only to get back up to 230 to then go back to 210....back and forth, up and down. I am sick of it! I am hoping that with the help of my doctors I can achieve my goal and then it will be up to me to maintain it. I've learned a lot about portion control and how to choose food wisely....I think the most important part now is that I realize there is no "off" time for me. I will now and forever have to be observant of everything that I eat or drink. If I want cake, I will have it, but just one regular size portion, not half the cake:) So here I am, about to eat my lunch and finishing up the post. Not sure who will take the time to read this or if anyone will actually. I don't care, it's a way for me to keep track of how I'm doing and vent about anything and everything I'm feeling. Anyhow, that's it for now.....lunchtime:)
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